"Just because I'm paranoid it doesn't mean I'm not annoyed..."

I’ve been drinking in empty glasses.

I’ve been sleeping in sharp blade beds
I’ve been walking lonely in crowded streets
I’ve been living in castles of cards… falling down over me…
I’ve been wrong all my life.
I’ve screwed up everything I touched.
I’ve been pretending for so long…too long...
I’m a joke.
I’m a fraud.
There are no happy endings anymore. Never were.
I’ve been trying to be nice, and how much I hate to be nice!
And the point is: people despise me anyway…and I don’t care. I’m pretty sure that I despise them more.